Warning! If you have not played through the entirety of Skyrim, including the DLCs, as well as the “Rigmor Of Bruma” and “Rigmor of Cyrodiil” mods then do yourself a favour and stop reading right this second. The last thing I want to do is spoil your play through of the game. The biggest tragedy I can think of is ruining your play through of either Rigmor mod.

Skyrim is one of the most popular games ever. After its release on the 11th November 2011 it broke many records for total purchases and downloads. It won many “Game Of The Year” awards from the major game sites and magazines. More than seven years after its release the mod community keeps adding to the game and has made its replay value second to none.

The game’s full title, “The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim” tells you it is the 5th game in the Elder Scroll Series. With the addition of spin-off games, DLCs and an online world, The Elder Scrolls universe has become rich in lore and canon.

These journals are my interpretation of the lore with some personal choices made on which canon to believe. This interpretation was greatly influenced by events in the two best mods I have ever played for any game, “Rigmor Of Bruma” and “Rigmor Of Cyrodiil”.

I will refer to The Dragonborn as a male as that is his gender in this journal. I have chosen to be Rigmor’s lover which does not sit well with some players of the mods. Playing a female Dragonborn and/or Rigmor’s guardian with no love interest is perfectly legitimate. This journal is not a dismissal of those options.

There are aficionados who believe they know the canon as well as the writers and developers. They will argue with mod developers from an imaginary level of superiority and can often be seen making disparaging comments online even when discussing the most popular and critically acclaimed mods. If you are one of those then do us both a favour and move on. The canon is loose enough and on many occasions so contradictory that re-interpretation is not only valid, it is necessary. Take a look at how the definition of “Dragonborn” changed between Skyrim and earlier Elder Scroll games for an example of changing and contradictory canon.

Skyrim is of the game genre “action role playing game” or more precisely a sub-genre known as “action adventure”. The difficulty with such games is cohesively tying together each action you choose with appropriate responses from NPCs you encounter. That requires a lot of “if-then-else” logic. To make a game like Skyrim seem as open as it is and to give the player a sense of freedom of choice some “if-then-else” logic is applied but nowhere near the amount necessary to cover every situation. A classic example in Skyrim is freeing Thorald Gray-Mane from his Thalmor jailers at Northwatch Keep.  Eorland Gray-Mane never thanks you or treats you with any respect or shows any recognition that you rescued his son when you ask him about “The Companions”. He never mentions it even after you have joined them. The rudeness of Imperial Guards after the civil war is another example even though you reached the rank of legate.  The fact you are Dragonborn and just saved their very existence is not recognised by any citizen or Jarl.

Not only are the Rigmor mods by far the best and most emotionally involving experiences I have had in over 50 years of being a gaming nut, they have opened up a whole new world of canon interpretation and therefore lore and therefore Fanlore (or Headcanon or Fanart or whatever you favourite term is).

The seeming lack of a common cause for the crises facing Nirn begs for answers. Why did TDB (The Dragonborn) happen to join the College of Winterhold the day they found the orb? Why was TDB just in time to stop the Volkihar vampires from uncovering Serana in Dimhollow Cavern? Why did TDB travel to Solstheim just in time to stop Miraak’s plans? Logic tells me there must be a reason. This journal is my interpretation of what really occurred and why. It ties in with the Rigmor mods as Jim opened a proverbial can of worms by declaring The Dragonborn had no memory of his childhood. Jim hints at his parentage and how under the direction of The Divines he really is.

This journal entries are what TDB thought was happening as he not only saved Nirn on multiple occasions but pursued his identity and history. I have been careful to only express TDB’s thoughts as they would logically happen after each revelation. The Dragonborn only undertakes things relevant to his pursuit of identity, at the direction of The Divines or to aid Rigmor. For instance there would be no reason to join The Companions or The Thieves Guild. All of this is entwined with the love he shares with Rigmor and how their combined stories start leading to the answers he seeks.

Rigmor is important to The Dragonborn. All the answers to all his questions would still not complete his identity. He can only be complete with her beside him.

Click on the Journal link at the top of the page to start sharing my adventure.