Just over a year ago I started this blog.
Nearly 1.2 million words in draft form.
Nearly 800,000 words published.
Over 6000 live game screenshots taken and 3000 saved games.
Over 300 posed screenshots.
If you add all the hours over that year at minimum 7 hours per day that is 2,555 hours or 106.45 days of writing, composition and publishing.
I started the blog for two reasons.
Firstly Rigmor’s story needed expanding upon. There are few people who have played the mods who do not feel some emotional connection to this Nordling with a destiny. I will admit that I was an emotional wreck for days, if not weeks, the first time I said goodbye at that damn border!
(It is completely different in the RoB remake. Still emotional and a lot has been borrowed from my journal. They get to spend a lot more time together in the remake. It is brilliant!)
Then I finally got to load up RoC after years of waiting and my initial joy at seeing Rigmor again was slowly replaced by genuine despair. She was going to marry some nobody called Bobby after I had remained faithful and saved the world a gazillion times! I would have stopped playing, deleted the game from my hard disk and never mentioned her name again if she actually did choose him. My wife laughed at how emotionally wrecked I was playing a ‘stupid game!’
The real spark to write the blog happened just after Rigmor and Wulf jumped off a cliff and swam across a lake. Rigmor asked Wulf about his childhood and he can’t remember one.
All those words and journal entries later and he still does not know why they took his childhood from him!
I did a series of childhood memory screenshots and I had Wulf and his little girlfriend having a picnic at the exact spot Rigmor asked that question years later. To me that showed how precious were the things The Divine have stolen.
Second reason I started the blog is to keep my brain moving and keep the black dog at bay.
I am a narcoleptic and most days go down for at least a four hour ‘nap’ in the afternoon.
The condition took my career away when I was finally at the top after thirty years of hard work.
My brain does not want to work like it used to. Writing exercises the part most damaged. That is why I have to take those naps. It is exhausting forcing it to work like it used to.
Losing your chosen career is a shock. The suicide rate amongst those with narcolepsy is well above the average. People do not understand the condition. This is the easiest explanation.
Stay awake for forty eight hours and then try to do your job, watch TV, read a book. Then you will know what we feel like every single day.
The large screenshot in this entry is one of my favourite parts of the mods. Just Rigmor, Wulf and the quiet they share. No pull of destiny or fate or prophecy. No Gods, no violence, no expectations. Just love.
Of all the screenshots I have ever done, young Wulf and his parents in Aetherius is my number one.
The preliminary work on RoT for one character is sad and uplifting as forgiveness is sought for and given by an old enemy. If Jim can keep that level of emotional investment going it will be brilliant beyond words!
In recent entries I have provided a bit of a clue as to what all of Tamriel , not just The Empire, will face when the Akaviri finally land. You are going to have to choose paths of conciliation or war. Those of you who have role played your Dragonborn might have to change your moralistic and/or idealistic outlook.
Rigmor may not agree with your choice!
I would love to hear what people’s favourite parts of the journey have been so far. Not just Wulf’s but your own travels with High Queen Rigmor.
What do you hope happens during RoT and what do you think the ending of the mods should be?